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Friday, Not that cold...

Everything looks normal.....Just that you are gone....

Can't believe I've written a reasonable amount of posts since I've started this blog. Please be proud of me. Lolz. Jk. Anyway Hope I can go on and keep it as a habit. :D

So previously....( Lolz.., I've made my blog sounds like some television drama or soap opera, Need to give a recap before proceeding with new episode. haha.) I've reached the point of my life where I learned the term "GAY" and was starting to be confused about it, really really confused. However, though I'm confused, I did not give much thought about it, I was still young. I thought I may be gay that time as I knew I did naughty stuffs with a guy and not a girl. I did not know the term gay refers to emotionally and physically attracted to the same sex.

When I was young(from year 6 onwards, I had a lot of puppy love with girls, never with guys. I was emotionally attracted to girls. This is gonna be really funny guys....I will tell you about my first crush. She was a girl whom I knew since my childhood, quite a long time I think. We played a lot with each other, so that's how I had a crush on her. Lolz. Whenever she's with me, when she complimented me, I was all joyous. However, here's come the interesting part....She was kinda tomboyish. She became almost a man as time went on. Never seen her wear skirts nor do girlie stuffs. Guess what....At present, she's a lesbian. Hahaha. How funny..:P Especially, he/she is a leng zai (handsome/cute) lesbian.^^ So now, I was thinking,may be when I was young at that time I did not realise I started to liked guys unintentionally, since my first crush is considered half guy also...Lolz..So its really a confusing, complicated, sophisticated bond/relationship. Seriously, I knew what I want to say inside of me, But but....Its really hard to put into words....Hope readers would catch what I intended to point out here..

During my school years, in general, guys would play basketball, play rough games and stuffs. For me, I played tag, chasing around, and played skipping ropes with the gals. At that time, the girls did not care whether its a girl or guy game, we just want to have fun. Now, when I think of it..."shit~~~even when I was young, I did girlie stuffs, may be that is how I slowly turn into......." Haha

So yea, my first crush and we were separated into different class and we did not see each other that much after that. So, slowly...I did not feel anything for her anymore......In a way, I think she’s way manlier than I am. Lolz. And there…. she went in search of her princess….

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