As time went on...

Thursday afternoon, Cloudy and chilly,


I want to forget, but the memories with you...are tattooed inside my heart...so how?

This post will still be about how an innocent child evolved into such a beast. Lolz. As I mentioned in the previous post, I had this special "Best Friend" of mine whom I had intimate sessions with.

And unfortunately, One day when he came to my place as usual....I was still sleeping and half awake. He came to my bed and we "started"...It was good at first....The door opened. My mum was dazzled by the spectacular scene of me lying on the bottom while he was on top of me~... We were shocked to death and was brought down to earth. Though i think our dicks were still solid after the caught in the act. Lolz. My mum shouted:"What are you doing?!!!!" My best friend dumped me and ran away, not sure where he went to after that. However, it was judgement time for me.

*WhippppPPP..Splashhhh*

"ahhh.....!!! *sniff* *sob*..."

My mum explained what we were doing to my dad, and he took a cane stick and whipped me real hard. I was crying, I knew I did something that I should not have done at first.

"Don't ever do that again! Its not right!" My dad roared. My mum was just standing behind my dad. I vaguely remember, but i saw a tint of disappointment and wariness from the look of my mum. I was still getting whipped and the pain and tears went on and on.....Until he asked me to promise that I will not do it again....


I was burning with pain. The scars sank deep into my skin...My parents left the room.....I was there alone, crouching and hugging my knees, crying silently and remorsefully....

I was still a kid back then. I knew it was wrong; I did it because it felt good. I still had no idea about sex at that time...I did not meet my best friend for a long time after that incident. From that day onwards, I tried not to think about it as I really feel shameful for my wrongdoings. My parents start to develop their suspicion against me. Preventing me from staying alone and also meeting "him".

Of course, I am still a horny little boy. ^^. To satisfy my desire, without a partner, I caressed my dick against my bed. It felt good too. I did not have a single clue that It was masturbation. I've been doing that for more than 3 years I think. Being born into a completely heterosexual society, I thought I was the odd one out when i was between 9 -12 years old. "God, why am I like this? I don't think anybody will be doing the things that I've done. May be I'm the only one in this world who is this weird..." That's my thought as a young boy.

My parents worked hard during the eighties and nineties; finally they became wealthier when they commenced a business company. I lived well and had a lot of people taking care of me. My housekeeper, maids and drivers were very nice to me. My parents were busy taking care of the company; while I just stayed at home playing games and did my homework. I've mentioned that I'm the only child in my family, with no siblings at all. It was kinda lonely sometime, if I think back. I was alone most of the time.

Friends, relatives and teachers always say to me the same thing: "Only child, then you must be very happy, no one to fight with you, no one will argue with you, no one will steal your toys away..." May be as a child, i'm happy with that fact. However, now when I looked back, How i wished there's someone for me to argue with...~

When i was in Year 5, i've learnt the terms "gay" and "lesbian. At that time, I was thinking.." So, am I considered gay then? Since I did something with a guy when i was young.." Nevertheless, I did not put much thinking into this question until later in time...

To be continued...